Chapter 8

I spent ages trying to pick out what to wear. I finally decided on an old pair of Levis, a flowy black top and some heels. Nicky showed me to a table. It was near the stage.. great. "Wish me luck," he whispered in my ear and then kissed my cheek. "Good luck," I replied. I was not looking forward to seeing Jon. 

I looked around the room while waiting for the gig to start - a way to distract myself. There were alot of women of all ages, most wearing Bon Jovi t-shirts, and bored husbands that were dragged here. The room was packed to the brim, if they let another person in the room it would explode. 

Finally the hotel manager, Peter, came on stage. "Let's get this show on the road, well as many as you know Bon Jovi are here tonight and so is the hotel's singer Nicky who is amazing and I want you to stay after Bon Jovi have played and listen to him, believe me you will not regret it.." that made me smile, Nicky was an amazing musician much better than any of the crap ones that are out now. 

I looked up on stage and Peter had gone, Hugh, Dave, Tico and Richie were on stage and ready to begin. Jon ran onto the stage with the same energy he always had when playing a gig. If I fell unconscious right now I would be happy. 

The audience went crazy when he smiled... but then again who didn't? When Jon smiled it felt as if he was smiling at you and only you. But something about his smile didn't seem right.. it seemed fake. His eyes looked sad.

He sang "Lie to Me" "This ain't a love song" "Open all night" "my guitar lies bleeding in my arms" and a beautiful cover of the goo goo dolls "Iris" that had me in tears. I told him it was my favorite song and he sang it.

Jon went and sat at the piano he started to play a beautiful melody in a minor key. 

"Take me back, I love you.

Pity me, I need you.

Yes, I was a fool to let you go,

But without you there's no tomorrow.

I'm a fool to want you,

I'm a fool to hold you,

To want a love that can't be true,

A love that's there for others too,

I need to know that you love me,

I need to know that you need me,

Like every rose needs it's thorn...

Take me back, I need you,

Pity me, I love you.

I know it's wrong, it must be wrong,

but right or wrong I can't carry on without you.." 

His voice cracked on the final word, he then closed his eyes and I saw a tear roll down his cheek. In fact tears were rolling down every man and woman's cheek. It was the most heartbreaking song I had ever heard, with such raw emotion. It sent shivers down my spine.

As Jon left the stage he got a standing ovation. 

 

Chapter 7

The following morning Nicky lay on the bed watching me get dressed. He was looking at my stomach strangley. I chose to ignore it. "Sweetheart, no offence meant but your stomach looks larger than usual.. infact it has for about a month or so.." He told me. I didn't think I had put on any weight, infact I had hardly been eating for the past four months. I turned sideways and looked at my stomach in the mirror. He was right it had gotton bigger. Infact my breasts looked bigger too.

I saw myself turn ghastly pale. Was I....no I couldn't be. "I think I need to go to the doctors.." I said, Nicky looked concerned. "Babe are you ok?" he asked, the worry was evident in his voice. I nodded.

Lucky for me the doctor could see me straight away as he had no other patients. He examined me, "is there any chance you could be pregnant?" he asked. Nicky's face lit up when he heard the doctor ask, he loved children. "It's.. possible" I replied quitely. "Well, we'll do a pregnancy test and see.." he said with a smile.

Turns out I was four months pregnant. Great. I was having a baby. This is amazing, I was having a baby! I couldn't wait, it was meant to be the best experience of your life!

Nicky couldn't stop singing "I'm going to be a daddy, I'm going to be a daddy!" for days! Then came the dreaded Friday. Oh how much I was looking forward to seeing Jon that night...not. I thought I was over Jon, but when I heard him on the raido... I knew I would never be over him.

I lay on the bed resting as Nicky got ready to go to the hotel early. "I have a seat reserved for you, you know I thought Jon Bon Jovi would be some big headed rock star, but he's kinda down to earth." Nicky had met the band earlier that day at the hotel, Jon and himself really hit it off. Nicky turned around, he was laughing to himself. "He had the funniest look on his face when I showed him a picture of my fiance.." Nicky immatated the look Jon had on his face, it was one of surprise. Wait.. did he say fiance? "Fiance?" I said, Nicky's smile grew wider. Before I knew it he was down on one knee. "Becky, I know we havn't been dating all that long, but I love you. Your the mother of my child. I couldn't ask for a better person to spend the rest of my life with than you, Rebecca Jones, will you marry me?" he asked. Marry him?! My head was screaming YES YES! SAY YES YOU FOOL! but my heart was screaming NO! YOU LOVE JON! BUT YOU LOVE NICKY TOO! YES! NO! YES! my heart was all confused. "Yes!" I replied with a smile. Nicky slipped a beautiful ring out of his pocket and placed it on my finger and then kissed me.

Note from Ava

Hey guys!
http://jonswildnights.blogspot.com/ <--- Jon's side of the story. Read it, it starts four months after Becky leaves. Sorry for the long wait for a new chapter. Hopefully that one will keep you all going until I get back from vacation (I'll be back on Friday)
Keep reading. Hope you are all enjoying the story! Please leave comments :-)

Ava

Chapter 6

Four months later...

Nicky and I rang each other every day. He was quite the gentleman. He was sweet, intelligent, funny, good looking, he could sing, play numerous instruments he was my perfect man and he was now living in the states. We had gone on several dates, Nicky got a job singing in a hotel and made quite alot of money.

We were both now living in San Franciso. I had to get far away from Jon as possible. I still cried myself to sleep most nights, I missed him so much. I have Nicky now, but why am I not fully happy?

I was sitting in my kitchen reading the morning papers and listening to the radio. "Big news for all you rock lovers out there!" The presenter said, this caught my attention. "We have Jon Bon Jovi on the phone with us," I wanted to turn off the radio and smash it against the wall, but I couldn't bring myself to do it, I needed to hear his voice.

"So Jon you have some exciting news for us, would you like to tell our listeners about it?" they asked, "Well Richie came to my house yesterday and I havn't been all that cheerful for the past few months, personal reasons, and he threw me this box and there was keys to my old harley in it, so me, Rich, Dave, Tico, Hugh and a few others are going on bike trip, we're starting on the west coast and we'll be making some stops in towns and preforming in bars or hotels or wherever we can and our first gig will be at the Madison Hotel next friday night," he said.

I thanked god my phone rang at that moment. "Hello?" I answered, "Hey baby," I heard Nicky say excitedly before I could say anything he carried on "Guess what? I'm going to be preforming with Jon Bon Jovi next friday at the madison, you gotta come! You'll be able to meet them too." He said. I didn't tell Nicky that I used to work for Jon Bon Jovi, let alone have an affair with him. "Uh.. yeah that'll be great," I lied, I really didn't want to go but I had been promising Nicky I'd go see him for ages and aswell this might be his big break. As much as I didn't want to go, I had to be there.

Later on that night he came over, he was sitting in my living room playing his guitar. He was playing and singing Tears In Heaven, he put so much emotion in it, I felt like crying. It was heartbreaking. He was such a magical musician. Much like Jon that way, he put every emotion he had into every song. Maybe that is why I like Nicky so much, he reminds me of Jon. They were both, funny, sweet, exceptional musicians, extreamley good looking. But Nicky wasn't married and Nicky really loved me, unlike Jon who was married with children and only used me for sex.

Chapter 5

Jon and Dorothea were constantly fighting until we arrived in St.Barts. Then they became all lovey dovey, as they always did when they were out or on vacation.

The family were gone to a christening so lucky me got the day off. This was the first time in the five years I had been working for the Bongiovi's that we were on vacation and I got the day off. I was delighted.

I decided to make the most of it and go have a few drinks in the pub. I walked into a pub called 'The Osbourne' it looked interesting from the outside. Zebra stripped. Inside was even cooler, there were skulls hanging off the wall, posters of Bob Dylan, Hendrix and a man with a pigs head. The ceiling was painted, one side heaven the other side hell. Jon would love this pub.

I sat down at the counter. A tall, tanned, dark haired man walked over to me. He was georgous. "Hi, what would you like?" he asked in an american accent. "What's good in here?" I asked trying to hide my smile, "your the best thing going," he said with a smile nearly as white as Jons.

We chatted for hours, he said his name was Nicky, he was from San Fransisco. He moved here six months ago when his attempt to become a big rockstar didn't work out. He was charming, good looking, funny. He wasn't married, he didn't have children. Someday when he finds the right person he wants to get married and start a family. He was my type of guy. My perfect guy.

Oh if I wasn't already in love with Jon. A married man with four children....

Nicky and I exchanged phone numbers. He asked me out to dinner which I had to polietly decline. I promised Romeo that I would build a sandcastle with him on the beach after the christening.

I looked at my watch, it was 6pm. "I have to go," I said. Nicky grabbed my hands and put them up to his lips and kissed them. "If you ever want me for anything, anything at all... ring me," he said with a crooked grin. "I will" I said grabbing my handbag and putting on my shades. "You promise?" he asked walking me to the door. I rolled my eyes at him, I felt like I was back in high school. Minus the big hair, braces and pimples. "I promise," I said with a smile.

Jon was leaning against the counter top when I came into the kitchen. He looked amazing. He was wearing a black suit with a white button down shirt. "Oh Miss. Jones I must say you do look amazing.." Jon said walking over to me and wrapping his arms around my hips. He looked down at me smiling. "Where's Dorothea and the kids?" I asked alarmed incase they were close by. "They're still at the party and will be for about an hour maybe longer. I was getting a headache so I came back." He explained then kissed me.

We stayed in the same spot holding each other, kissing each other just staring into each others eyes, for twenty minutes. "Becky.." I finally heard Jon say. "Mmm.." I said leaning against his chest, not opening his eyes. "I need to tell you something, something I've been wanting to tell you for a long long time... I love you. And I'm not afraid to say it anymore, I love you. I always have loved you, I always will love you," I looked up at Jon not knowing what to say. I wanted to say that I loved him back, because I did. I did love him, more than anything on this earth. I would die for him. But the words wouldn't come out.

All of a sudden Dorothea came through the door. Jon and I let go of each other as fast as we could, but it was too late. She had seen us.

"I knew it.. I KNEW IT!" she screamed, she was obviously hurt, what woman wouldn't be if they walked in on their nanny and husband holding each other. "Dorothea.. I can explain!" Jon said walking over to her. Dorothea's eyes filled with tears. "My sister was always right about you Jon, ALWAYS! From the day she met you she said you'd cheat on me with her! I never believed her. I got in fights with her over it! And all this time it was true, you were cheating on me... WITH OUT NANNY! Sure I had my suspicions, but this just proves it. How long has this been going on for? HOW LONG?!" Jon put his arms around her but she pushed him away. "Don't you DARE touch me! You flithy little asshole!" she snarled through her teeth. "Dorothea I have NEVER slept with Becky." He tried to convince her. She didn't believe it. "No Jon. I refuse to turn into my aunt. You will not make a fool out of me. You know that the one thing in this world that I can't stand is being lied to! Stop lying to me! Tell me the truth. How long has this been going on?" tears were running down her face. Her mascara was smudged everywhere.

"Five years" I answered her quietly. She turned ghastly pale infront of my eyes. "FIVE YEARS? FIVE YEARS?!" she screamed. She was giving Jon a nurderous look, I was relieved she wasn't giving ME that look. I felt tears stinging my own eyes. "I better go.." I said walking outside.

I walked as fast as I could down the road. Trying to keep the tears back. "Becky.." I heard Jon call after me but I kept walking. He was the last person I wanted to talk to right now. I couldn't believe what I was doing with him for the last five years. I couldn't believe that I would be the reason if their family was going to be torn apart. "Becky please" Jon said grabbing me by the sholders forcing me to look at him. "Becky, I love you. I need you." He said with tears in his own eyes. "Jon, I love you too.. but your not going to leave your wife. You even told me years ago that you couldn't afford it..That's why I have to leave. You and your family will have to forget me. Pretend I never existed. Pretend that none of this ever happened, because that is the only way your going to save your family." The tears were rolling down my face, I noticed they were rolling down his face also. "I'm sorry Jon..I'll go back to the states, all my stuff will be out of your houses before you are back. Goodbye.." I then turned and walked away.

It was the hardess thing I ever did. But I had to. Jon had a young family he needed to stay with them. Not me. It felt as though someone just ripped out my heart and jumped on it a thousand times. I was numb with the pain.

Chapter 4

Jon was sitting on the big blue couch in the living room on his laptop. Dorothea was sitting next to him reading a book. I was in the kitchen with Jake and Romeo making sure they ate their lunch. "Pass me my wallet hun" I heard Jon say to Dorothea.

I brought my attention back to the two little monsters eating their lunch. Most of Romeo's lunch was on his face, clothes and on the table. "Look at the mess! Where's my clean little Romeo gone?!?!" Romeo had inherited his fathers cheeky smile, apart from Romeo's was innocent. I grabbed a cloth from the sink and started to mop him up. "Come on let's get another t-shirt on you," Romeo ran through the living room and up the stairs. I turned to Jake "I'll be back in a minute, finish your lunch and then I might take you to the beach" I said, knowing that he loves the beach. Jake nodded and dug into his lunch.

When I got up to Romeo's oversized bedroom there were clothes all over the ground and Romeo was in the closet. I started to pick up the clothes and put them back. "Becky where my superman top?" he asked, "I don't know hunny, where did you put it when you were finished playing superman?" Romeo always wore his Superman t-shirt when he was playing Superman. And off he ran again. I followed him, he was running towards Jesse's room.

I stood at the door of Jesse's room, Jesse had his hand over Romeo's mouth. When he spotted me he took it down. Romeo was looking over at the closet. "Hey Becks" Jesse said giving me his "Becky I'm innocent" smile that he had perfected over the years. Romeo was still looking at the closet. "Have you seen Romeo's superman t-shirt?" I asked. "Yeah, I'll get it.." Jesse said walking towards the closet. Romeo put it on straight away and ran past me.

I looked at the closet and smirked, "We're going to the beach soon, if you'd like to come," I said. Jesse gave me a smile that was nearly a mirror to his fathers, "Sure, thanks. Bye."

As I walked through the living room I heard Dorothea call my name, "Becky," I turned around to face them. "We're all going to St. Barts this weekend and we are going to be staying for two weeks," she said. I looked over at Jon, he was smiling but it didn't reach his eyes. His eyes looked pissed off. I nodded and went to the kitchen.

"Becky! Becky! Becky! I finished! can we go to the beach now?" Jake said jumping up and down infront of me. "I'll have to talk to your mommie and daddy first" I told him, "you can take them, make sure Steph and Jesse go too." I heard Jon say. "Ok, we're going to the beach!" I said.

Chapter 3

The next morning I woke up at my usual time, 6 am. I sat up on the bed and rubbed my eyes, was last night really as amazing as I imagined it? Did it even happen at all? I looked to see if Jon was there lying next to me, but he wasn't, he probably went back to his own bed afterwards, as usual. I got up and opened the curtains, the sunrise over the navesink river looked beautiful. I just had to go for a run. There wasn't many mornings that I was free and the weather was beautiful.

I went over to my walk in wardrobe and got out some shorts, a tank top and my sneakers. I grabbed my i-pod off of the dressing table and set off on my run.

As I was running I was listening to The Goo Goo Dolls - Iris. Oh how much I loved that song! It reminded me so much of Jon. And I'd give up forever to touch you...

After several minutes I noticed someone running beside me.

It was Jon. I stopped running and turned off my i-pod. "Jon.. I never saw you there, sorry." I said, and of course he gave me that multi-million dollar smile that melts the hearts of millions! "Becky, it's fine... I was rather enjoying just running next to you, watching you run.." he replied. I didn't know whether to take it as a compliment or be insulted that he didn't want to talk to me. I decided to take the better deal. A compliment. "How long have you been next to me?" I asked, I asked trying to look into his eyes behind those dark sunglasses. "About two miles...what's your favorite song?" he asked changing the subject. My favorite song? Why would he want to know MY favorite song? "Iris... by the goo goo dolls," I replied, i could feel my cheeks burning.

We turned back then and ran for a few miles then went into a diner for some breakfast.

"Hey Jon, how ya doin?" the waistress asked, we were at Jon's favorite diner in town it was called Uncle Ed's, "I'm good thanks," he said looking at the menu, though he knew what he wanted before he came in. "Got any pork rolls?" Jon asked flashing his multi-million dollar smile. I could tell the girl was dazzeled by him. She nodded, then she looked over at me, she looked me up and down with a dirty look. "What do you want.." she said as if she couldn't care less if I died on the spot. "I'll have the same," I said as politely as I could. She turned back to Jon and gave him a huge smile and a wink then went to the kitchen.

Jon was watching me, I looked up into his beautiful baby blue eyes, like I had done a thousand times before but this time it was different. Our eyes locked... that was the moment I was sure I was in love with John Bongiovi.

Chapter 2

Jon started to walk up the stairs, I was still wrapped around his waist, we were still kissing. We went into my bedroom, when we got to the bed he let go of me and we both went flying down onto the bed. "Don't you just love it when were alone.." he said with a smirk between kisses. "mmm-hmm" I replied then rolled him over onto his back, I was going to have full control tonight.

I sat up and bit my lower lip, Jon started to take his clothes off very eagerly. He looked up at me, "Babe, why aren't you taking your clothes off?" he said trying to look hurt, by now he was full naked.

I got off the bed and went over to my 'magic box' I pulled out some fluffy handcuffs. I looked over at him and gave him a cheeky smile, "turn over baby," I said trying to sound sexy, I don't think it worked but he turned over anyway. I picked up his belt off the ground. I stripped down to my bra and knickers, "Tell me Jon, have you been a good boy?" I asked, Jon turned his head to look at me, a smirk grew across his face. "I'm never a good boy.." he replied sexily. I whipped him with the belt as hard as I could. He let a scream out of him, "Baby, I've been misbehaving, I NEED to be punished!" I noticed his breathing was heavier than usual, I smirked to myself and whipped him as hard as I could, yet again he let a scream out.

"I can't take it any longer, I need to get inside of you, uncuff me!" I knew if I didn't uncuff him he would start to beg, as much as I wanted him inside me, I wanted to hear him beg. He looked over with me with wide eyes, they almost looked in pain. "Lay your hands on me baby" he stretched his legs apart. I couldn't take it any longer, I had to uncuff him. When I did he pinned me down to the bed and tore my underwear off of me.

I looked down at his cock, his thick, long cock. I could feel it going in me, it felt amazing. It always did. When I have sex with another man, it never feels anywhere near as good. Just then I looked at Jon, he started to scream. He then pulled out and seman was flowing like water out of his cock.

A huge smile grew across his face. The phone rang, I looked at Jon he nodded. "Hello?" I said slightley out of breath. "Oh hi Dorothea, how are you?" I asked, I looked over at Jon he was panting like crazy. He made a gesture to say that he wasn't there. "I'm fine thanks, Jon's gone to bed," I said, I wasn't lying, he had gone to bed... just not his own. "Oh.. ok, see you then, bye." I hung up the phone. Jon looked at me with a terrified face, "Dorothea and the kids are coming home early.." "Why? When will they be back?" he asked looking pissed off, "Dorothea's sister had to go out of the country to a funeral, they'll be back about 12 tomorrow,"

Jon pulled me down ontop of him, and smiled. "Well we best make good of the few hours we have left alone then.." he then kissed me.

Chapter One

His hair...

His eyes...

His smile...

His charm...

His voice...

His scent...

I could truely say I was addicted to him. But he had a beautiful wife, four beautiful kids... and I was their nanny. When my friend first told me that her daughter's friend's parents were looking for a new nanny I was expecting some rich snobs. How wrong I was!

They were probably some of the nicest people I had ever met, and the husband was georgous. He looked like a rock star, little did I know that he was one.

I became a live-in nanny for the Bongiovi's five years ago, just before their youngest, Romeo, was born. And ever since that day Dorothea took the kids out to see a play, I had been Jon Bon Jovi's little secret.

I was minding Jake and Romeo at the side of the stage while they watched their father playing infront of 72,000 people. They loved it when I took them to his concerts. They loved the lights, the thunder of applause the audience gave Jon, the cheering. EVERYTHING. Whereas Stephanie and Jesse couldn't be less interested. "Do we HAVE to go?" they asked their mother, Dorothea. "Yes, it makes dad feel good when you go and see him, you don't have to be on the side of the stage the whole time, just be there for about four songs... is that too much to ask?" was her reply. They did as their mother told them, they stood up near us for some songs and went back to the dressing room for the rest.

As I watched Jon shaking his ass on stage I couldn't help but have a day dream of our 'One Wild Nights'

I snapped out of the day dream when I felt somebody climb up on my lap; it was Romeo. "Becky I'm tired.." he said cuddling up to me. I gave him a quick kiss on the top of his soft blonde head. I looked at Jake who was standing nearer the stage, he was watching his father with such love. I then looked out at Jon, Jake really was a mini- Jon. He would break many many hearts when he was older. Jon looked over and smiled at us, "This is for you" he said. The opening chords to This Ain't a Love Song played. At the end of the song fire works were let off. It was really magical.

They came off stage Jon gave me a dazzling smile and a wink then picked up his sleepy toddler out of my arms. "Were they good for you?" he asked, "Yes they were very good," I then started to get Stephanie, Jesse, Jake ready to go stay at their aunts with Dorothea for the weekend.

I could feel Jon's eyes on me as he talked to some people.

When Jon and I got back to his New Jersey mansion, as soon as he closed the door he started to kiss me passionately. I wrapped me arms around his neck and grabbed his hair. I felt his hands on my ass. I jumped and wrapped my legs around his waist. Oh I couldn't wait for what was coming.